Boring day , lesson was boring , i knew it studying at home is a lot more fun than studying outside with other people , ran 2.4 today now damn tired . Then after school had guitar , today last training , ok maybe not , tomorrow last training till syf , good good :D Finally can get this over with , the funny thing about today is , got this random girl i just walked past her , yeah i walked past her a few time in the LRT and stuff then i don't really know her well so everytime i see her i will just ignore and do my own stuff then today while going to legend's class to pass him his stuff i saw her then i was talking to Brian so i don't know whats going on , she then turn around and wave in front of my face , i was like wth , so i was like , balls to it just wave back you don't want people to come telling you about you forget them and stuff . Then before guitar was about to end a surprised visit from the principal and staff . Was touched by the support :D
Didn't post yesterday cause i was resting the whole day , i knew it after the fire drill i felt a lil weird , i never liked going out in the morning , feel so tired right now , yesterday i felt as though my whole body is over heating , from 39.1 degree til 38.1 degree till 36.5 which is today , then back to 37.6 then finally now drop back to a normal degree . Always happen sigh , my mind was filled with a lot of stuff yesterday , oh well . Today was the most boring day ever , don't feel so good , like a hang over , yeah thats what it feels like , then watching the show higurashi no naku koro ni , damn epic , well i ma go sleep now , feel very weak and tired , hope tomorrow i will be better . i even canceled breakfast with belinda . oh well , gonna reach school early tomorrow i guess .
Good luck for the result for Chinese dance :D you guys can do it :D Speaking of SYF , it is just a mere 1 week left till SYF , this year its gonna be a different , we West spring guitar ensemble won't be at the COP standard anymore , NEVER a COP standard , i believe we can do it this year , SILVER ! oh well , i love the song Dear You <3 gonna play it tomorrow for fun :D Had a visit to the dental today , well , its felt very very awesome , its being awhile since i had my teeth polish not as pain as the face therapy that my mum gave me so yeah i am quite use to this tiny pain already . The moon was nice this morning , walked with bryan tan to school though i saw xiao qi ;x , she must be feeling sad hor ? :D oh well , i feel excited about tomorrows exchange ! can't wait , we show them in 2 months we changed a lot , we are no more the sucky west spring anymore , we are definitely better now !
"I wish i could tell you those 3 old words , for those i never say so much ." - Three old words Epyllion
Today , just had a weird dream , going around hurting everyone . til something happen i stop ;/ can't seem to remember what .. Amazing , i got back all my stuff in my com , now all i need is a program that allow me to print out some notes that i want to try :[
"The sound of you still echoes inside this empty house of ours ."
Shall speak about yesterday April 02 first since its boring today . Yesterday had a lot of fun , went for guitar , learnt some stuff , come home , was thinking of cutting my hair but then .. too many people and i promised to reach a site by 2 pm . and yeah , i reached a lil earlier . What can you expect from me ;x , anyway , got a phone call from amani yesterday "Erh , JunShun , The classical guitar for the school must be brown arh ?" "huh ?" "I mean the colour must be brown is it ?" "erh ... don't have to be " "Then what colour ? black can right ? " "Erh , cannot , you need pink...Hot pink to be exact." "But then there is no hot pink lerh" "Got , you go check confirm got " "Wa..." "Joking la , any colour will do cause for training only . then without training , the selected people can use the school one ." It was epic , we went to play arcade at kallang leisure park , we went there to ice skate end up no one ice skate , so we decided that no one ice skate then we go watch movie , no movie , then we went to bowling , bowling to long so we decided to wait , joon yin is learning guitar :D yay ! . Can't wait for next friday , then after that , we went home , we were having fun talking at outram park (in the train .) , then joon yin was like " OI , outram park " Everyone ran outside ,we had taken a lot of wrong side , so 80% of the trip we are in the train , well it feels like it anyway .
Today , i woke up , went to cut hair , come home play guitar , watch some show .. at the night , why must i think of you .. you don't love me no more , so why do i bother , move on son .
Today was great , saw xiaoqi this morning :D She was with steph though . So yeah . Class was boring , things are boring , a lot of stuff are boring , but OH MY GOD can you believe it , 3 of my friend joining guitar <3 <3 . It is just fantastic , things are gonna get so much warmer ... i guess :D Well , so i got tomorrow plan sketched out in my mind so yeah hopefully it goes smoothly . ya see . the thing the had bother me for a second this morning is something where my neighbour in my class said , "when you quarrel with her , she cried you know " I was like " No i don't know ?" Him : "Yeah , she was crying after you left ." Me :"Thats not like some april fool joke or something right ?" Him : "No , its not , so when she cried i ran to her lorh . Then i call you come back you never. " Me : " oh did i , i don't know , well it was when i asked her 4 time whats wrong , and she shook her head and say nothing , so i was like , oh nothing , means lifes ok then i shall go home then." Him : " But i really think you should have stayed ."
No i am not gonna be like "oh , i never should have walked away , i should have being there for you babe ." http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZwRFpPjrnfE <- Ftw . Well , no , I don't regret this choice i made , look , i am happy . ya know , i want to stay this way . I don't want to get so emotionally affected by some person who doesn't seems to care .
so yeah , enough with this , cry a river , build a bridge , get over it . yeah
I suppose this is the screwed up week . A lot of stuff happen this week . I don't know whether to say i am happy or i am sad . Possibly i could say i am waiting for the worst to happen .Like how ? maybe getting stab by my own scissor maybe.. Well , there is guitar tomorrow . I don't know what to hope for now .
"One day , i will say out this true feeling with my true self ."
Had an awesome sleep last night , woke up , play some guitar and set off to school , saw xiaoqi on the way to school so , was talking to her about life and stuff , i guess . The lesson was boring , too easy to be exact , very boring .. :[ Principal of account is just a mass repeat of everything . :[ Maths was a simple homework assignment but was interesting though , then cooked some weird ass stuff in Econ . Pretty much nothing happen , except people are frigging using my guitar during maths period of course . Adrian tan , Andrew lin , TTC came to our POA class to do some supervising i suppose , oh well , then every time i look at mr tan he will always be looking at his watch. Its good ya know , to keep track in time . :D After that was guitar , gotta train at the classroom next to our original training ground as there are people in it so yeah . It was okay other than the fact that my 5th guitar string snapped by itself it was okay until the last ten minutes , 4 people has being taken out of the SYF group .. i felt so sad , it was that time that i feel like telling teacher that , they tried so hard..there is another 1 1 month time .. but.. like what he said he tried to help us but he is not senior enough , i understand .. its still sad that , i can't do anything to help them , i always go to guitar training happily cause , when i am there , i feel as though i am with my family , all of you guys are like my family , i love you guys , no homo , no special feeling . Like a family , even though i came in for a few months maybe ? , the time we spend to brush up our skill for SYF is special , every combine , we get better than before , so taking 4 people out is like a stab in my heart .. i feel sad , but i won't hate mr adrian , he tried his best , actually it would be better to thank him , he tried but it's just that he is not senior enough , if he is , he will probably help us . i trust him . But still those solemn look in their eyes , just makes me feel , sad .. it felt worst when i cannot do anything about it . i don't know what to say .. i shall go sleep now ..
I don't know if i should say this as a punishment or does good deed really help one . hmm. Starts off great today , talking in class about stuff A Random Girl pass by Girl : Are you Rachel's brother ?! Brian : yea...why? Girl : *Damn happy point at herself and said* Remember me ? Brian : erhhh..no. Girl :oh.. *go with the student council* ZhengZhou , Yiwei and I was like "Brian , how could you , see you hurt her feeling :[ at least say a you forgotten or something :[ , you don't have to hurt her feeling Brian : But i don't know her . Me : Well , meh and so ...*stuff.*
Afterward , everything was going on what i plan to do today except for that talk about sex that came up of no where , gotta admit , that was , the most epic and the most boring stuff i ever heard . Well , after school , that was seriously fml i ask brian to lend me his phone so that i could call my mum , as a friend he lend me his phone , his was like , better not let teacher confiscate this , or else get me a new phone . i was like , sure thing . Then afterward while walking up stair miss daliah saw me , Brian and i was like fml , bloody hell la , seriously . But seriously Brian , very very sorry about that , make sure to warn me not to lend phone from you . seriously .. fml .
Well , boring day , no homework , no fun . got my phone with money back , gotta cut down on sms , oh god .Hopefully tomorrow is better .Well , it will be , i suppose .
3 days have pass since i updated , quite a boring week this week , no saturday training how sad is that . Friday , was epicly normal . nothing much happen , reach home , took a shower and went to sleep straight away . Saturday , Earth hour , didn't participate at all since parent don't like the thought of me doing my stuff in the darkness . so instead i am using fan from now on . Sunday , which is today , watch quite a few show other than that it is pretty much boring . Anyway , can't wait for it seriously ... !! teh intense is building up in me . 30 days remaining .
"how funny that one hold on to pass glory and fail in the present ."
Thursday , March 24 2011 Along with Wednesday , March 23 2011 . 8:54 Pm
Wednesday , Day was nice , started off late cause of my stomach , it was having some problem during that morning , So , gotta run 2.4 that morning , glad to see people suffering after 2.4 , anyway , today is the day i found out about what happen exactly , like what was predicted , you left us , you are left behind . You don't take back what you left . Even if they do forgive , at i wouldn't have . Didn't recieved any punishment , completely forgotten about it i suppose .Had Guitar today , it was fantastic , couldn't have enjoyed more . Suddenly , Mr Adrian was talking about food . It was epic . :D , right after i reached home , i went to sleep , it was a tiring day..
Thursday , Nothing much happen today , the morning walk is fun . unlike the usual walk . Was amazed that the fact that i forget about my English homework and remember my Chinese one . Well , so for that i did my English work during recess , luckily i brought some food along with me today .Can't wait for tomorrow lesson on guitar , Simply lovable :D
"What you left is what you aren't suppose to regret ."
Pretty god damn awesome today , made a point to pay attention in class today and study well for today , and some f*cktard went to spoil my whole plan , thank you so much , it was necessary. Woke up at 6 , then i decide to sleep for another 5 minutes , this morning went to meet Xiaoqi , who is scared of training her immune system cause of the rain . For today , i brought a lot of stuff to study , my notes and textbook , was feeling good till one period , seriously , of all days , why choose the day i wanted to work hard on . I was feeling good after C/D cause the lesson was fun , no trouble , i was damn high , afterward , forget to bring one god damn paper , "Ok , those who never do nevermind , those who forgot to bring stay back after school for your punishment ." Then i was like wtf? , during that lesson i was sleeping all the way , seriously , damn boring already after that , i do rather study at home , its much more peaceful as well , rather than getting punishment for forgetting to bring one piece of paper , fine its my fault , i brace myself for the punishment , the thing is , "Oh , i have no time to punish you today , come back tomorrow ." . I am like seriously ? You ? No time , i understand as a teacher you do not have enough time , but i need my time too , despite my look , i do study when i am bored . Seriously ya know and of all days , choose the day where i like , great , thanks . You state that you are trying to help us , by not hurting us . But then the comment you made time to time is hurtful to me , i can handle any problem , but to insult my interest is what i get on my nerve , its like , i put all my heart into finally having something to do in my life , and you say it ain't gonna save me , And you call that helping , yeah it helps a lot , it help me notice that there is no point listening to your "advice" you gave me . i follow my own footstep , you don't interfere with my path . Seriously.. lucky i have this. Rather than going around cursing and complaining , i rather write it down in this place , so people who don't want to read can just alt-f4 . Sigh , tomorrow , i shall go for that god damn punishment , if the response is same as today , i won't be going already , wasted a few minutes of my life . And you call that helping .. that is very necessary .. Those we read this , forget this , i won't be bringing up in reality , so yeah . I ain't gonna go around saying this thing over and over again . Bloody hell . After so much Complaining , time to say about the fun time with my friend :D , forget some shit that i don't need to .
Its David birthday today :D , How lovely , He is such a cool guy , kind friend , and very patience in everything like what his father say "Ya , i know David is very patient , he is like those kind of people who would wait for the rain to come before going of the house . " Their English accent is so damn cool . i wish i have those accent . :[ yeah , got David a set of guitar string and helped him restring , I felt a sense of happiness when i saw his smile saying that he loves it a lot . Doing something i like at the same time making a friend happy , really makes me happy . Those eye that sparkles in joy , seeing that makes me feel as though i have accomplish another thing in life . i don't care what others think , but to me , i am just happy doing what i like to do . They asked me for my name , i literally said that my name is Neo instead of saying my real name first. Now thats how okay , i am with that name His whole family is so kind , their dinner were nice . This is the conversation i had with his mum . "This sauce is beef ." "Beef?" "Yes beef." "oh...uhh , due to my religion i cannot take beef" "oh.. i didn't know , then you should try this chicken soup , Filipino style." "sure :D" After that i took the spaghetti and add some chilli sauce to it and his mum was like "Wow , i haven't see anyone eat spaghetti this way" His brother's girlfriend : " yeah , never seen it before" then i was like , i could survive on anything . But then after i try it , it is nice ... very to be exact , i had a scrumptious meal :D After that we went to play basketball , after that David thank us a lot of time for coming over to his house to celebrate his birthday , he is should a kind guy . After that i went home , on the road the comment that was said a few months ago keep repeating itself like a broken record , saying "You think that guitar can save you?." , "There isn't any point." , Then after that when i went into the shower i was like . "You know what ? F*ck this , i am who i am , who is there to judge me when even the judge has to be judge ."
"The Happiness that was given just by a smile , is the greatest gift i could ever ask for ."
I shall cut this short since i accidentally deleted my previous post. I am very happy about today . It was so fun . Accounting i did some role playing , pe boring cause nothing better to do but move . Then after that is econs did some worksheet then teacher ask me to play guitar , i was touched by what miss karen said about the west spring ensemble . We will definately make the school proud . Yeah the people at the exchange is all kind :) even when we dont know each other we greet each other :) how fun . Joining guitar is never a mistake . Then during the trip back there is a flash back of you. Why .. The time was great but why do you have the hurt those days .. Its over .. Junshun .. Its over . Stop going back you douche .. I will definately make west spring proud.
Today , woke up at 6 plus and went to school . The train is empty but then still very noisy . Today the tapping thing at the lrt station seems to broken so everyone using the handicap one but end up . Everyone ask the manager about what is going on i walk pass them . Put my card . Tap then upgraded then i tap out . Today , school very slack but i was very high today. :) after that went to plaza with Brian to cut his hair then some kid in the bus being damn immature although they are 1 year older . I swore that i will cover those foot step that you left behind filled with your ashes. Then afterward came home trying to minecraft but failed so .. Yeah now on my bed trying to update my blog .
I woke up at 5 in the afternoon today , so probably won't be able to sleep so early today , but i seem that i am still tired , wonder what happen :[ Anyway , today was quite a boring day , after watching finish an episode of my favourite show and my mum was ironing the clothes so i am far from my computer so i played pokemon instead , its fun <3 . ok then , for the next 30minutes i shall go and play my guitar . so yeah . :D love .
"Should have done something , but i've done enough , by the way my hand is shaking , rather waste some time with you"
Today , woke up extra early cause it was cold . Woke up around 6 sharp , I took my time in preparing then I called Belinda to wake her up . After a lot of call , she replied me saying that she is awake . Then I went to her house ,took the bus and saw Izman in it probably going to Malay dance since he is the president of Malay dance , reached at 6:54 , sms'ed her no reply , so i thought that she was showering , after 1 hour i called her , she told me she felt asleep .Amazing . Afterward we went to 7-11 to grab some stuff , had Nescafe and a bean paste bread . Then we waited for bus . Saw Jingwen in the bus . Then surprisingly everyone reached there at 8:15 and stuff . So we went to the 4th floor , I'd being running around in search of teacher , but the school seem haunted , only got a few people in it . Afterward mr Adrian came , with his tea of course :D . Shortly after Brian arrived , Miss Fatin came too , she thought the training was at 9 . Afterward i was running around passing things , everyone helped out , :D how wonderful . learnt some more parts from Mr Adrian again . Now Brian and I can do a duet , then Belinda heard us playing , she say the song sounds good so she want to learn , so being a good guy i wrote the whole tab for her . After the break , i comb my hair with a parting . Mr Adrian saw it and he was like " JunShun , What happen to your parting ? .. it looks... weird. " , then i was like "Syf mode :D" then i comb it back to my normal school hair :D . After training , miss Fatin told me to try out some shirt , its being awhile since i ever wear a tie and a suit , so yeah , its confusing at first . After that Mr Adrian helped me :D .After trying out , i find it so so . :x , but still must thank Miss Fatin for finding for me , save me the time too :D After training , Brian went home , leaving Belinda with me , so we went to eat some lunch , talked about stuff . Then when i reached home , Brian and I just game the whole afternoon away , after that my cousin came and i let him use so i went to continue tabbing out Belinda's tabs and play some guitar . I really Love Guitar :D. Set up a whole plan for next week , from Wednesday to Saturday , a 4 day in a row training , in school . Nothing much happen though .
Slept till very late today , did nothing today exactly except for watching detective conan and play Minecraft , it is still a very fun game to play and i totally recommend it . nothing much to say for today except , tomorrow got guitar , hopefully it will be fun ... speaking of which i am gonna sleep soon , though i slept till 12 + today i am very very right now , maybe i should just use my phone and play pokemon since i am near to catch suicune <33 .
"Every footstep you left in my world , shall be cover up with mud ."
*Discrimination in Night safari mail toilet* *This monkey means business , was attacking his friend* Beautiful scenery caught at 5:13pm *"Damn that thing on my lure"-Brian* Thursday , March 17 2011 . 2:00pm of Friday , March 18
Woke up early in the morning and gave Belinda a call so that she can wake up to go school for guitar training , and a sudden news about Brian not going cause he slept at 5 in the morning , had 2 pieces of french toast and a cup of tea . While Belinda , being damn hungry , had a plate of "hokkien mee" and 2 pieces of french toast with a cup of Milo . Afterward we took a bus to school , during that ride i saw Izman , had a great chat with him in the bus . Reached school at 8:03Am , We went to the fourth floor and it was empty , so Belinda and I went to find Miss Siti for the tapping thingy and the key to go into the room , Miss Siti asked me through the phone whether the training is at 8 or 8:30 I told her 8:30 but we came early , she seem happy :D . Commitment is key . After that we took the tapping thingy up to the room and open the room but the key is with Stephanie , so we have to wait for her . I told Belinda to stake the chair up while I return the tapping thingy to Miss Siti , told me to not try something funny when I am alone with Belinda , shortly after I was like "what the hell ?" then I told her that she can trust me , the was an awkward silence after that . After that I went back up to set up the training ground and after the training ground has being set , we set down on the chair near the bass ground and started playing guitar , everyone waited for Stephanie to come to get their guitar so they started chatting , after that the door was open every take their guitar , and we all started training , during break , I was talking to Mr Adrian about learning songs and he taught me the song "Unholy Virginity " Despite the title it is a nice song and very fun to play with. Afterward , Belinda told me if I could follow her to Yishun , though it brings back memories but I told her sure , so i followed her to find her customer , afterward we went a bit of shopping and Belinda was trying to convinced me to tell Brian not to go fishing and come watch movie with her , then I was like if Brian would canceled the fishing trip for movie it would have being a miracle. Had 2 Onigiri, Rice ball in Japanese , for Lunch underneath Brian's flat . After that Belinda left us as she will be going to watch movie with Ghim Chong .After that I went fishing with Brian , His mum and his sis , I got motion sickness while in the car , it has being a while since I had taken a ride in a car already so yeah . As soon as we reach Lower pierce reservoir we quickly find a place to sit and set up our stuff , the normal road Brian and i was walking was taken by some monkeys so we have to take an uneven route so we took the muddy road but in the end , both our slipper got stuck and we have to dig them out and we washed it in the river . Shortly after we set up , a stranger came to find us and told us a lot of stuff , he's a friendly guy but teaches us to do bad thing , like going some nice places to fish but then it is illegal in the reservoir , after that Brian lost one lure after casting too hard . After that we saw that same stranger caught a fish i went to take look and report it to Brian , it was a stingray , one my father used to caught a lot , shortly after when Brian want to go to the other side he bought a peacock bass to us , we let it go though :D After that his sis came to tell us to go home , and after we walked out of the forest , the ranger caught us for fishing at non-fishing spots , though we didn't fish. After that we went to Night safari for dinner , shortly after we had finished i spilled some of the SeaFood Hor Fun sauce on my pants then i said i will smell like seafood this way . After that we walked pass a place where something is grilling , then i came up with a lame joke , i smell like seafood and i smell like grill therefore making me smell like grilled seafood . After we went home , we were playing Blackops at his house . After that Brian went to play dota so i went home . After a few matches of Dota i went to sleep and forget to update . :x
"The distance within us , has been cut short by the same night sky we are looking at ."
-Wednesday , March 16 2011 . 10:55pm Boring day , got woke up by a call from a fellow friend . Did nothing much today except for playing dota and minecraft . Minecraft is a seriously nice game everyone should try it . :D Big day ahead tomorrow , gonna meet Belinda at 7 in the morning . Should be going fishing at night tomorrow , its gonna be a big day . i found something i wrote last year , its hidden in a private blog so i was thinking of sharing it , was like , how the hell did i know all this last year , damn dramatic . shall post it in italic font . "you reminded me that , i said i love you ... you show me how its like to be loved again , i said i won't leave you , but you said the same , but you are leaving , everyday , everytime . you taught me valuable lesson that i need . I know leaving you hurts ...both myself and you . But its the only way that you can find true happiness . i ain't the right guy , i thought i were , you thought i am . but its far from the truth . i know you will be happier this way , i asked for a break , even if my heart say no . i can see that your gone . Sorry , i love you" - god damn lyrics . "Cry a river , build a bridge , get over it " - Minecraft forum .
Out of the boredom , i came . A lot of stuff changed when a new year start . Some became mature , some became happier , some still stuck in the world of "i am faking a smile ." Life's good . Awesome stuff happening ever since i started secondary school . Awesome friend , stuff . sex..maybe not :D But still learnt a lot of stuff this few years . Being playing "Pokemon" lately . (Feeling awkward writing blog filled with no information for today .) yeah , i want it to be long but then .. Oh well . Shall go design my blog , twitter .. some stuff . shall end here for today , hopefully tomorrow will be "walsome" .
